To random desu!

Well, i see u do view my blog even when its almost dead. Thank You. Truth is, my blog's kinda like my 'public' diary (public cus ppl can see it! HAHA!). I write whatever i think or feel. Yep i changed from chaos to fading. Lets just say... Things change. I bet almost no one can tell tat i was an anime fan when i was in sec sch. Cus i didnt really think much abt cosplay, figurines and anime related stuff. Well, truth is, i was just hiding my feelings to the world. Maybe it was because i had too little pocketmoney tat time and tat i was 'caged' at home most of the time cus of O levels. So ChaosDestiny tat time meant tat my destiny was in chaos. Now i changed it to fading. Why? Because all the chaos are gone. Isnt tat good? Nope. Cus it jus comes bak to u in another form. I dont really wanna say why now, guess its not the right time yet. So tats why my destiny is fading. Destiny to me means choosing the different choices to walk down the path of my life. I cant really change my destiny unless i already know what would happen which is impossible. However now, i have very little/difficult choices of me to choose. Tats why i saw my destiny is fading. Well tat doesnt mean my life is ending though. Im not so scary to tat extent.

Hmm hope tat answers yr question, Random! And sorry for the super late almost 1 month reply.

Anyway another thing abt my sis. Im really concerned abt her in Serangoon JC. My sis knows i like Geraldine so she keeps saying to mi " hey, i saw Geraldine in sch!" lolz. Ok tats not the point. My sis miraculously made it though O levels. Somehow she didnt really study ( to the point where she only study 1 day before the paper) and managed to get a reasonable point to satisfy my parents. Tats how she got into SRJC. Hmm, anyway, she have been having the same attitude as wad she did during O levels ( as in dont study and will some how manage to pass). But it fails badly to the point where she got lower than a 50/100 for all her subjects. If im not wrong, lower than 50 in JC is somehow still a grade so yeh i cant say fail... But ya she didnt do well at all. My mum was very very angry and hired so many tutors for her. However, she didnt study at all. And now she keeps complaining tat her paper is very hard. I told her it was her fault for not studying but she counters bak by saying tat her classmates will also fail the paper. And she doesnt seem concerned or sad tat she might retain for another year. This also affects mi as my mum would blame me for not encouraging my sis to study and scold mi for tat. She couldnt even make my sis to study and she blames me for not being able to? How does this make sense? Ohh well, my sis is the very rebellious type who would go all out to argue wif my parents. And im the total opposite so called coward to some ppl who would avoid a arguement. Hmm i feel troubled because of this. Somehow i feel this is not worth saying out... No one can help/ do a thing anyway...