Hmmm, so long since i have visited by own blog. I thought it was already closed when i couldn't search for it. LOL =.='''

Anyways, Im currently serving NS as a Driver trainee. Yes im a chao keng recruit but ohh well i OOCed from BMT because everyone thought i had stroke when i fell out from speed training due to chest pain and then i had hyper-ventilation which caused my whole body to be numb and i couldn't move my body. And everyone thought i had stroke >_> so my MO asked me to see a cardiologist to be safe. And i got OOC from BMT because of that. Well i have no intentions of going back to recourse. 

Currently as of now, i am attending SAF driving course for Class 3 and 4 license. I got to say that it is not easy at all to get a license in SAF. Its so easy to fail and the max points you can accumulate is 10 points compared to the civilian license which is 18 points? I just completed my parking test today and im guessing i have 1 more week till my driving test? I do hope i can pass quickly so i can return to unit to help out as there is a lack of available drivers. 

Wierd uh? A chao keng recruit wanting to help his unit or is so actively participating in army. I am a stay out personnel but still, i chose to stay in. Honestly, i really don't know why i am being so helpful to everyone. Well, to the point where people took advantage of my help. I just cannot resist to do work and help people around. When i am free, i find things to do. Worst is i am in the army! Normally, people would say, who the hell would be so siao on in the army. Plus even i decline my encik's or staff sergeant's off when they want to give me off, i would just take it and stay in camp and still help out. I really feel im abnormal. Maybe that is just my personality? I really like playing computer games and watching anime still as usual. 

Ok im still gonna post something SUPER wierd here even though i know its really really damn stupid. As most of my secondary school mates may know, i like this girl called Geraldine from my class. For some reason, ( I really swear i don't know why!) i still think of her sometimes. Plus i have no interest in other girls even though they are better or what so ever... 

I bet no one knows about these facts about me...

1. I have been physically abused by my parents all the time

2. My parents favor my sister over me and would give me minimal money to survive, my sister the otherwise.

3. All my work money/internship pay/army pay goes to my parents.

4. I am illegally "working" outside to help myself survive for my anime figurines, food and etc.

5. I was always bullied ( Taken advantaged of ) all the time because of my crazy helpfulness personality.

6. I was physically bullied in secondary school because i like Geraldine. The bullies will sometimes wait for me outside school to bring me out of school to somewhere deserted and wack me up. This was the reason why i started learning how to play the piano and would not go home till late in the evening. (Definitely no one knows about this, including my best friend in secondary school)

7. I most probably have gone through the worst of some people's life. Having to stay outside my house because i was kicked out of the house for hitting my mum after she provoked me, well i was a fucking idiot that time. I had to stay at the park with no shelter. I slept in the rain and it was freezing cold. Drenched, cold and all alone.... I thought of suicide... I had to beg my friend's parents to spare me a loaf of bread. Survived for close to a week outside before my sister brought me back to the house. Didn't bath, only had 1 loaf of bread, survived on toilet water. Well definitely some people are living like that so i cannot say much, like life is unfair.

Still, i have no idea why i am still posting all these nonsense... Well, maybe for my past reading >_>

To random desu!

Well, i see u do view my blog even when its almost dead. Thank You. Truth is, my blog's kinda like my 'public' diary (public cus ppl can see it! HAHA!). I write whatever i think or feel. Yep i changed from chaos to fading. Lets just say... Things change. I bet almost no one can tell tat i was an anime fan when i was in sec sch. Cus i didnt really think much abt cosplay, figurines and anime related stuff. Well, truth is, i was just hiding my feelings to the world. Maybe it was because i had too little pocketmoney tat time and tat i was 'caged' at home most of the time cus of O levels. So ChaosDestiny tat time meant tat my destiny was in chaos. Now i changed it to fading. Why? Because all the chaos are gone. Isnt tat good? Nope. Cus it jus comes bak to u in another form. I dont really wanna say why now, guess its not the right time yet. So tats why my destiny is fading. Destiny to me means choosing the different choices to walk down the path of my life. I cant really change my destiny unless i already know what would happen which is impossible. However now, i have very little/difficult choices of me to choose. Tats why i saw my destiny is fading. Well tat doesnt mean my life is ending though. Im not so scary to tat extent.

Hmm hope tat answers yr question, Random! And sorry for the super late almost 1 month reply.

Anyway another thing abt my sis. Im really concerned abt her in Serangoon JC. My sis knows i like Geraldine so she keeps saying to mi " hey, i saw Geraldine in sch!" lolz. Ok tats not the point. My sis miraculously made it though O levels. Somehow she didnt really study ( to the point where she only study 1 day before the paper) and managed to get a reasonable point to satisfy my parents. Tats how she got into SRJC. Hmm, anyway, she have been having the same attitude as wad she did during O levels ( as in dont study and will some how manage to pass). But it fails badly to the point where she got lower than a 50/100 for all her subjects. If im not wrong, lower than 50 in JC is somehow still a grade so yeh i cant say fail... But ya she didnt do well at all. My mum was very very angry and hired so many tutors for her. However, she didnt study at all. And now she keeps complaining tat her paper is very hard. I told her it was her fault for not studying but she counters bak by saying tat her classmates will also fail the paper. And she doesnt seem concerned or sad tat she might retain for another year. This also affects mi as my mum would blame me for not encouraging my sis to study and scold mi for tat. She couldnt even make my sis to study and she blames me for not being able to? How does this make sense? Ohh well, my sis is the very rebellious type who would go all out to argue wif my parents. And im the total opposite so called coward to some ppl who would avoid a arguement. Hmm i feel troubled because of this. Somehow i feel this is not worth saying out... No one can help/ do a thing anyway...

After so long....

Hmmm.... It has already been so long since i updated my blog... Anyway no-one sees it except mii. Anyway Monday is my Microcontroller Technology exam and i haven really been studying hard. Then there comes Thursday with my electrical fundamentals paper which i kinda failed my term test and friday is my electronic fundamentals and systems. After that is a long holiday! Yay! Still watching animes and playing card game called CHAos (character operating system) an anime card game and pre-ordering anime figures for my own collection. Also currently playing MapleSEA(hacking) and dragon nest( a cooler 3D game than runescape). Awating for Call of Duty: Modern Warfare 3, Mass Effect 3, Assassin's Creed Revelations and maybe H.A.W.X 3(if there is).

Running out of time...!

Tmr's my maths 2 paper and i still have not really touched on it... E-device is on tuesday and i kinda forgot alo9t abt the front parts. D-Fund is on wednesday and im still not sure abt the last few chapters. Basic Aerodyanamics is on Thursday and i haven even touched the book... Looks like im really gonna suffer this time if i dun chiong faster to study which i pray i can...

Best Gundam Cinematic Trailer

New Life in Poly...

Hmm... Tmr's my Air Law exam and i still dun really much confidence... Guess i focused too much on animes and lesser on studies. Anyway, i am now more into animes... Well, i usually focus on animes with genres like," Slice of Life, Romance, Haerem, comedies and well... ecchi? There are really a few animes i've watched and wanna share=)

Slice of Life and romance - Myself;Yourself , Clannad, Kanon(2006), Air, Angel Beats(must watch)

Comedies - Baka no Test, Seitokai Yakuindomo, Seto no Hayanome

There are still others like Sora no Otoshimono, Infinite Stratos, Kore Wa Zombie Desu Ka?, Code Geass, Zero no Tsukaima and many more!

Well, most of you seeing my blog would be from Yuying 4A, so u guys will be like," urg! Melvin watch anime? ok...? So wad man..." I feel that watching anime sometimes really help u know more about your life and you will tend to treasure it better like the genre ' Slice of Life'. It really did help mi think better. Thats why i really wanna share these with you guys. Please do leave a comment on the chatbox if u wanna talk to mi abt animes or what u think abt animes.

A very sad love story....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HZA_s-zY5m4&feature=related

Greatest Stressor in my life...

Just imagining settling down wif a course in poly. U like it alot and u do reasonably well for yr sch exams. But then suddenly comes this special exam that everyone in the course related to aviation has to take and u apparently failed both... Worst, is u have so much confidence u will pass. I am in Aerospace Electronics in Temasek Poly and i feel like pulling out of my course now. Strange right? But well, its because of CAAS(Civil Aviation Authority of Singapore) they have this special exam that u have to pass in order to get your aircraft maintenance licence. Sounds easy? Think again. Passing mark aint 50%, its 75% instead. Sucks. I jus took Human Factors and only spotted 1 mistake out of 20 questions and i still failed, for physics i only spotted 3 mistakes out of 50 and still failed. It really pisses me off. Just because of CAAS i cant get my aircraft licence, if CAAS did'nt exist, i am sure im still feeling happy and happily relaxing during my holidays. Now i cant even think of what to tell my parents. $80 per paper. Its most probably gonna be the same if i retake it.Why does my life have to suck so much?

Sad birthday in the end....

My day was ruined by my parents... They didnt allow me to go out to celebrate my birthday wif my fren. Worst of all, he invited so many ppl and got a cake too! Now, they have to eat the cake for themselves. I feel sad for them too. What can i say... I guess its too bad that i have these kind of parents, that only know how to think of studying on my birthday... I jus wish i had parents that are totall opposite of my current parents. Those that are caring, encouraging and wouldnt stress out their kids so much. Guess wad. Even my current sch form teacher is scared of meeting my parents! To my parents, play = use ipod/handphone/computer for any reason; be it playing, watching videos, listening to music or jus using it/talking and of course going out wif frens. Studying = open book and studying(mus have proof) or they mus see it then its counted. Study wif frens = not studying.

Hmmm...

Its 16 november nite. I really wonder who will wish me Happy Birthday tmr. I purposely changed my birthday date to 10 november in facebook. It seems only true frens can tell...

Ozone...

A short hill where the Milky Way appears,

the landscape I look out over is different from what I’d imagined,

Have we moved forward since those times?

The answer isn’t NO

but it’s not enough,

A malicious “god” is testing us,

let’s fill up the empty seat and head to the next stage

When asked “What kind of relationship do you have?” I say “Maybe a little more than just friends”…but that’s not quite right either…

the word “bond” is more appropriate,

while fighting with each other,

while breaking off relations with one another,

“Hey, where are you right now?” “Somewhere on Earth”

I’m not an astronaut so if it’s anywhere beneath the ozone, it’s no problem!

“Got it, I’ll be there soon”

Do I want to cause a disturbance until morning

in those important whereabouts?

Now currently having school break and YOG break which is abt 1month... But i have to study still cus when breaks are over, its immediately my final exams. Good thing is after final exams, i get another break all the way till 26 oct^^ which is damn cool^^ Im waiting for tat now... Well during November, im gonna get Assassin's Creed Brotherhood(PC) and Call of Duty : Black Ops(PC)~~~

Me and AEL classmates flying RC plane~~~

Today went to punggol fly plane wif my fren. Finally i was able to hand launch my fren's

plane with his permission^^ Flying is really fun... It's been 2 weeks since i played my com games~.~

Cessna 747!!! FTW yay!!!

Wooh!!! So long since i updated my blog... Sry guys, im kinda busy these few days. Btw, i have adopted a new hobby besides playing piano and computer games! Im now attracted to RC flying (remote controlled flying)^^ its really fun to fly your own plane. Im buying a remote controlled plane from my classmate's dad. Its a Cessna 747, a really good plane for beginners to fly. Alright i got to go study now, cya soon~~~

tired now... Feeling stupid cus of my term test results. Engineering maths 1 - 73/100(Grade B) i could have gotten 82/100(Grade A)... Digital Fundamentals 1 - 79.5/100(Grade B+) could have gotten 84/100 (Grade A)... Circuit Analasys - 36/50 (Grade B) could hve gotten 40/50(Grade A)... This suks man. All of them were all careless mistakes! Damn! And for Fundamentals of Aeronautical Sciences... Well, i got 57/100(Grade D+) which officially suked but this one i really didnt know how to do. Which is very bad. And almost 1/4 of the class failed=.='''

Assassin's Creed Brotherhood

Assassin's Creed II is already a great game! What about the new Assassin's Creed game? Assassin's Creed Brotherhood has more new weapons and more COOLER graphics!!! The trailer shocked mi when i saw the improved graphics! Damn check out the trailer!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zzNs4-kRLaE&playnext_from=TL&videos=If6grXsFC1o&feature=sub

Yay! Braces=.='''

Damn! Braces... But of cus first... Pluck 4 teeth=.=''' I jus plucked 2 of my molar teeth. The dentist gave mi so many injections. It suked. And now my wound is bleeding like mad. Have to change the cotton wool every 20mins and when i change, thr is so much blood. And worst of all, my mouth is still very numb. Cant drink water properly, dunno why. Still have 2 more teeth to go... May god help mi go through all this pain in one piece.

So much for the sch holidays now... Yet im not enjoying any bit of it...