Hmmm, so long since i have visited by own blog. I thought it was already closed when i couldn't search for it. LOL =.='''

Anyways, Im currently serving NS as a Driver trainee. Yes im a chao keng recruit but ohh well i OOCed from BMT because everyone thought i had stroke when i fell out from speed training due to chest pain and then i had hyper-ventilation which caused my whole body to be numb and i couldn't move my body. And everyone thought i had stroke >_> so my MO asked me to see a cardiologist to be safe. And i got OOC from BMT because of that. Well i have no intentions of going back to recourse. 

Currently as of now, i am attending SAF driving course for Class 3 and 4 license. I got to say that it is not easy at all to get a license in SAF. Its so easy to fail and the max points you can accumulate is 10 points compared to the civilian license which is 18 points? I just completed my parking test today and im guessing i have 1 more week till my driving test? I do hope i can pass quickly so i can return to unit to help out as there is a lack of available drivers. 

Wierd uh? A chao keng recruit wanting to help his unit or is so actively participating in army. I am a stay out personnel but still, i chose to stay in. Honestly, i really don't know why i am being so helpful to everyone. Well, to the point where people took advantage of my help. I just cannot resist to do work and help people around. When i am free, i find things to do. Worst is i am in the army! Normally, people would say, who the hell would be so siao on in the army. Plus even i decline my encik's or staff sergeant's off when they want to give me off, i would just take it and stay in camp and still help out. I really feel im abnormal. Maybe that is just my personality? I really like playing computer games and watching anime still as usual. 

Ok im still gonna post something SUPER wierd here even though i know its really really damn stupid. As most of my secondary school mates may know, i like this girl called Geraldine from my class. For some reason, ( I really swear i don't know why!) i still think of her sometimes. Plus i have no interest in other girls even though they are better or what so ever... 

I bet no one knows about these facts about me...

1. I have been physically abused by my parents all the time

2. My parents favor my sister over me and would give me minimal money to survive, my sister the otherwise.

3. All my work money/internship pay/army pay goes to my parents.

4. I am illegally "working" outside to help myself survive for my anime figurines, food and etc.

5. I was always bullied ( Taken advantaged of ) all the time because of my crazy helpfulness personality.

6. I was physically bullied in secondary school because i like Geraldine. The bullies will sometimes wait for me outside school to bring me out of school to somewhere deserted and wack me up. This was the reason why i started learning how to play the piano and would not go home till late in the evening. (Definitely no one knows about this, including my best friend in secondary school)

7. I most probably have gone through the worst of some people's life. Having to stay outside my house because i was kicked out of the house for hitting my mum after she provoked me, well i was a fucking idiot that time. I had to stay at the park with no shelter. I slept in the rain and it was freezing cold. Drenched, cold and all alone.... I thought of suicide... I had to beg my friend's parents to spare me a loaf of bread. Survived for close to a week outside before my sister brought me back to the house. Didn't bath, only had 1 loaf of bread, survived on toilet water. Well definitely some people are living like that so i cannot say much, like life is unfair.

Still, i have no idea why i am still posting all these nonsense... Well, maybe for my past reading >_>